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Dear tumblr, it’s been a while.

The past two  years i’ve realized everyone around me has grown up and changed. Those who once used to be really good friends are no longer close and those who you once thought you’d be friends forever are barely a part of your life anymore. I’ve spent so much time rethinking what i could have done differently to make some friendships work out or why i didn’t fight hard enough to make sure i didn’t grow out of touch with some people. 

But then i realized, why blame myself? Everyone’s life is different, we are all at different stages of our life whether that means we are focusing in our work and studies, living out the party life, or simply just settling down and focusing on what our future is going to be like. And that is one of the reasons why you lose touch with old friends, because of all these different stages in your life. I must admit, we are all bad friends at some point, sometimes we prioritize differently than we should. But all of that is based upon where we want to be in our life. For me personally? As much as i miss the friendships i once had, and i miss the silly conversations, hang outs and simply just the memories created. I realized that there are some people who do more to fit in with the crowd than to fix what could have been fixed long ago. If i were important, they would have fought to make things work before things got worse. I spent so much time apologizing for being a bad friend, apologizing for all my mistakes, and even my time to simply message and hope for a reply and i got nothing. So in return? What is the point of my constantly blaming myself when they don’t even bother to respond back. 

And this is the reason why, i don’t put that much effort into any friendships that aren’t worth my time. Or at least, friendships in which i am always the first to take the first step in communicating. And.. i guess unlike most kids at my age, i am not the type to go party and get drunk. I’d rather go out with friends for a few drinks over dinner to catch up, a movie, shopping, or even just something as simple as a day in. 

That is the difference between you and i, i am focused on finishing school, paying off my student loans, and then planning for the future and saving for a down payment on house in the next few years. You can say that i’m boring or not fun to hang around just because i don’t want to go party, but i’m making something out of my life. It’s my life to live and my choices to make, and i’m happy where i am.

October 7 2013
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"We live in an age where we feel guilt whenever we have to cut someone off but the reality is that some relationships do need to die, some people do need to be unfollowed and defriended. We aren’t meant to be this tethered to the people in our past. The Internet mandates that we don’t burn bridges and keep everyone around like relics but those expectations are unrealistic and unhealthy. Simply put, we don’t need to know what everyone else is up to. We’re allowed to be choosy about who we surround ourselves with online and in real life, even if it might hurt people’s feelings."

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"You have to find the right distance between people. Too close, and they overwhelm you, too far and they abandon you."

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"Work for a cause, not for applause. Live life to express, not to impress. Don’t strive to make your presence noticed, just make your absence felt"

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hello new school year

;) i’ve decided to go all out and work my full time job and a part time job at a law firm while enrolled in school full time. I decided to be even more crazier and do some volunteering throughout the whole school year just so that when i am done school, i will have all the necessary experience i need. And not to mention, i’ll be one of the very few students to pay off my student loans before i ever get any interest added on.

Hard work will pay off, eventually. ;) looking forward to the future

June 30 2013
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We’re not responsible for others’ happiness, and they can’t deliver ours. We can’t rescue others from their problems, and they cannot feel others’ feelings, provide their answers, or make their choices; only your own. We can’t change other people; only ourselves. If we have trouble accepting others’ behavior, we can tell them what disturbs us and why and what we would prefer. But the final choice remains theirs.

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"i miss who you used to be. the kind hearted person, who actually showed how much care was in the world. now you’re just a routine. no surprises, no excitement, no more care in the world to show."

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"in the end, we’re all on our own."

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"nothing will be the same between us anymore."

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im making the hardest decision possible..

but it’s whats best.

June 10 2013
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Sometimes the one you want is not the one you need
What goes around don’t come around
You should know me by now
Better than, better than…

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"The least expected relationships, are the ones that last the longest."

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"It’s hard to find someone who’s willing to be there for you from beginning to end."

— but i’m one of the lucky few, i’ve got you.

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"To give up is easy. But to hold it together when everyone thinks you’d fall apart is true strength."

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"You make me happy in a way no one else can."